December 4, 2007

• Monday: I got up Monday morning ready for the day and anxious to get on with it! Ha-ha what a joke! One is never ready for the unexpected! That’s why it’s unexpected, and why ever day is different. Because the expected never turns out to be that at all. So when I got to school it was as I said the beginning of an unexpected day. I had the announcements to do of course (expected) but today I didn’t read them, I made Christine do it. (Unexpected) Then much later in the day I had a field trip during lunch (expected) , but I didn’t know it was today and only found out (or i guess was reminded) that it was happening just before they left!! (Unexpected) But then to top this whole day of we had a very unexpected thing happen. I got to go home and do my home work (expected) in peace and quiet (unexpected)! A very pleasant surprise!

• Sunday: I can’t really believe how fast these people go! They never stop and don’t even tack time of. I don’t work that way. I get tired and I was tired that day!!!! SO TIRED that I couldn’t keep my eyes open. I lost my appetite and couldn’t eat; I just thought that I’d lose my mind. That’s what I was dealing with on Sunday. Mrs. Bae. Told us that we should be trying not to use the word tired a lot but I think she’ll except this because I’m not tiring to fill time or space I really feel tired! Physically, mentally, emotionally I am tired.

• Saturday: Friends and family are the things that hold us together when we are falling apart. They make us comfortable and they make us feel safe, but when you are separated from that you have to learn to cope. It’s super hard and some people don’t make it threw, but it’s not imposable. And it’s worth it, trying to do the extremely hard is very rewarding.

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December 3, 2007

Sunday: I was sick again…I mean still. This whole country just moves so fast and keeping up with it is a pain! My family went to church with out me, as I needed to sleep. The rest was heavenly. I actually slept for a whole hour with no interruptions what so ever. Ah the bliss of sleep and quiet. When My Family got home we all finished decorating the Christmas Tree. It stand as tall as me so guess who got the privilege of lifting Bentley to deposit the angel on the top of the tree? ME! You are so smart. We finished of the evening with advent in preparation for Christmas. Advent was very special, its the only time all of us (my family) are think at the same time of the same thing and can discus it. That, though not many people care about it, is really important to me. We as a family don’t interact much and Advent holds that for our family.

Saturday: Comfortable and at peace. The kind of peace you get when you’re with people you know and get along with. I miss that. I had that feeling with my friends at home and I’m striving to have that deep trust and friend ship again. I think I caught it a little bit, but only a little. the whole aspect still seams a little distant. I don’t feel totally accepted here yet. But that kind of thing takes time and patience, two things that I have just hate to use. So in Saturday the chief feelings where a little bit of longing and then a little bit of that true happiness, for which I’m very grateful.

Friday: Feelings that are strong and seem to be uncontrollable, must be controlled! You must always be  in control of your emotions. If not you will end up in a big mess of “well you said this” and “but I didn’t mean it!”. It’s no fun avoid it!

The End of Lord Brocktree

• Man this bock ended in a swing of emotion. All the heroes came together and fought against the Blue hordes Of Ungatt Trunn. It was so sad! They died tragically and fought bravely! They won back the mountain of Salamandastron with strategy and bravery. I loved it, very tragic and touching. I’ll quickly cover the main characters happy endings just to tie the whole thing up.

• Jukka the Sling: Died in battle back to back with Fleetscut her loyal friend Ruro is now leaded of the tribe.

• Fleetscut: Died paw in paw with his loyal friend Jukka, unfairly outnumbered and fighting to the death taking plenty of blue horde beasts with them to the dark forest in the sky.

• Dotti: Is now the leader of the Salamandastron Long patrol, a reward to her great bravery in battle.

• The Otter clan: they are free and live happily with the memory of their many dead living there hearts

• The rabble hogs and Sikkles: They are also happy with their new life in Salamandastron. Sikkles is still the terror of the whole mountain, but every on loves him.

• Rogg: He is now happily joined to the Otter crew and sails the seas of Salamandastron.

• Bucko Big Bones: Back where he belongs, far in the mountains with all his hares. He is currently the Captain of the Mountain Long patrol.

• Lord Brocktree: Ruler of Salamandastron and the proud victor of Ungatt Trunn.

• Ungatt Trunn: Defeated, Rejected, and drowned by his own fox magician. His hordes are dispersed and he is dead.

• So end the touching tale of Lord Brocktree and company and the last days of Ungatt Trunn The-Not-So Mighty shaker of heaven and earth and ruler of the stars. I think Lord Brocktree no owns that title.

 

December 2, 2007

• Saturday: Yesterday was or third game and I’m told that we have like 13 more! But to my surprise this one went really well. We lost 20 to 9 against a varsity division 1 team so yeah I’m ok with that. A little later way after the game Chris had a birthday party, Annoy, James and I helped out with it.  They had all kinds of games and things; a scavenger hunt, badminton contest, swimming, and then dinner. It was a lot of fun and I enjoyed it! so yeah that was Saturday.

• Friday: Ok the last statement no will be explained. I wasn’t all too pleased with my behavior that day. The events of the day just kind of stacked up on me and since they weren’t exactly ideal or enjoyable I just let them put me in a not so great mood at let that out on the people around me. That’s not good and you should never do that. So that is what I wasn’t so pleased with.
• Thursday: Missing the past is ok but don’t let it affect the present. It only makes you miserable, and you hate your present time even more then you already do.

December 1, 2007

• Friday: Yesterday we had our second game. Guess what we lost! But that’s ok. We’re playing against like 9th, 10th, 11th, 12th graders! And face it our team is mostly 8th graders. We might have been physically out matched but like we could still play with these girls. We lost 8 to 50 but all our goals…forgive me “baskets” where in the last quarter, meaning we just got better as we played. After the game it took like hours to get back to school, but it was a blast to just chat with all the Korean girls. I very quickly got to the hyper active stage of 200 words a minute and then soon after crashed. At that point I just stopped talking and started thinking and reflecting. Though the events that I reflected on I wasn’t pleased with!! Ah but that is part of the feelings day.

• Thursday: I forgot how wonderful my old house was and staying home that day made me miss it even more. When I go to school all the time and there’s so much to do and I don’t really get time to think and just sitting around that day made me think and miss my old home. The times when we would do school on our beds or on the couch; we never did it at a desk! I miss that, and I want it back.

• Wednesday: Scared I don’t fell prepared for this and it scares me so the lesson there is just suck it up and holdout till you get used to it and then you can enjoy it; all new things are temporarily uncomfortable.

Writing Class

Mrs. Bae has asked us to tell her what we think about the writing class. Mrs. Bae I think you’ll be a little surprised with my answer, but I wouldn’t change a thing about it. Where I winge about the work and the large amount of thinking involved I appreciate the work you put in to it. Having teachers as parents shows me just how much time it takes to be a good teacher and you are an amazing teacher. That takes a lot of time and effort and I can see and understand that. Thank you so much for what you’ve invested in your classes and even if you think they need to be improved I like them the way they are.  Thank you Mrs. Bae for not being scared of the challenge and taking on the job of teaching us.P.S. I mean everything I say even if I have complained that School is boring. *sheepish grin*

November 30, 2007

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  • Thursday: I was sick this day so I stayed home. I read quite a bit and took a very long bath. Amy was home with me and I was able to help her with her home work. That was nice. I got my work done and all that. Oh and I slept a bit but not much.
  • Wednesday: I was tied up in knots all day and couldn’t really pay attention. I love sports and all that but I was really nervous about this. I’ve been playing for what 6 days? It was like running Track and Field all over again terrifying. I warmed up slowly not really getting in to the groove of things till about the second half. I did get in to it though and ended up really loving it.
  • Tuesday: Ok but not amazing I was tired and exhausted, I just wanted to sleep and rest. I just couldn’t wait to get to the Christmas Holidays!!! I wanted to relax.

November 29, 2007

• Wednesday: The schedule at school was changed for the basketball players, so Alex and I had like 5 minutes of our last class. We headed out for our game around 2:30 and started to warm up ASAP. The game started like 3:10 or something. Man I thought I was going to be sick! I’ve never played before and here I was going against Varsity teams!! I think I’m crazy. But it went really well and we won! I was amazed.

• Tuesday: I Think I was feeling a little under the weather and then with the game coming up I was tired in knots. I’ve have never played before and didn’t want to let my team down so I actually couldn’t sleep that night. Though on the academic front I was pleased as punch.

• Monday: Korea is very different then the US and because it’s different you have to act different you can’t just do the same thing and expect the result to be the same. So when you just keep doing things like stay up late, in Toledo I would have a tone of time to just relax and get over it. But here!!! I don’t have any time to get over it.

November 28, 2007

• Tuesday: Went to school on time for once that was good. Then I had like next to no home work, and we had praise band practice. Oh and after Band Practice I had to run to Basketball Practice because we had a game the next day. And after that I had to run home and finish the little bit of home work I had. Easy very Easy.

• Monday: Kinda’ run of my feet so to speak. I had all those kids to watch sort of. And I had just gotten back from a sleep over, so I was really tired I think though it was a good day the whole Korean way of life was just wearing me out. I need a break.

• Sunday: That you need to trust people sometimes and even when one person hurts you, you can’t take it out on everyone else.

November 27, 2007

• Monday: I came home from my sleep over like 11:30 pm. I was tired!!!! We went to bed at 2:00 am, and (as my friends will tell you ) I never go to bed later then 9:00 so it was a late night. But for most of the morning I was pretty much just lounging around the house. I finished my home work and Hana was over for most of the day. Sasa and Yellow where over with Amy and they were watching Bentley and Abby so on the whole we had seven kids over. Oh and with the seven of us made an apple pie. That was very interesting.
• Sunday: I had a lot of fun hanging out with my friends and just feeling comfortable. The big feeling in my life right now is anxiety though, anxiety at the fact that ever one being nice to me is just making it up, that they don’t really like me they just want to be my friend because I’m the teachers daughter. I hate that feeling, the feeling of never belonging. But it was different that night, I felt like I could trust them and that I had a friend.
• Saturday: I’m scared of people, they scare me and I don’t get along with them. Well the new people any way, my friends are a lot easier to deal with, even then though I have a little bit of a hard time plucking up the courage to just be me. I need to work on that.